Being mean....

Ever since I've come to this land of  PJ, I've been showing more and more of my THIS side to people, who are close to me. I know I shouldn't be doing so because, any Tom , Dick or Harry can tell you that it doesn't help at all at building relationships.
 
I was not this bad at my previous college. Over there, I made lots of friends. 1 new friend everyday. How's that for a newbie leaving his home for the first time and was quite an introvert back in his hometown, huh? I made lot of friends there and I was even selected to contest  for the Mr. and Mrs ***** College Title!!
 
But over here, I have somehow felt like I have this new kind of freedo where I can be mean to everyone I like. I don't like it at all but it just comes naturally in me. It's like I'm doing something bad and I can't control myself because I have this feeling in me that whenever I play any pranks on my friends, I feel good at seeing them in distress or getting worried. I know, I'm sick, but I'm trying to change .
 
And as a response from the people who can't stand me, they start calling me stuff because I initiated something. I'm not blaming them for calling me names, but it's just that I need to change!!!!
 
I don't like being that notorious till people don't believe what I say. It's like I have to ask someone else to verify what I have just said, every time I switch from joking mode to serious mode.
 
I'll stop disturbing people and try to control this 'sick' feeling.